There is always that question
Will you be there for me when I need you most?
We all ask it
In every relationship
I was broken, open wounds from long ago were salted
You came for me
A friend severed a relationship, left me falling apart
You called me, talked to me, loved me, cared for me.
My past kept coming back up, assaulting me
You were there, cheering me on each time I overcame it
You gave me strength to move past the broken parts
You are slowly re-opening my heart to love
I don't always trust love
But I trust you
I don't know if I believe in love
But I know that if there is love, you have shown it to me
So don't go thinking you're doing me wrong
Life isn't perfect
We don't always say the perfect words
But you have come pretty close to it always
I know you would rather die than hurt me
So don't be worried, I know you care
I can forgive.
I love you.
Don't worry so much.
You're doing great.
And the answer right now to that question
Is yes,
Yes, you will be there for me when i really need you.
Maybe not it person
But in thought,
Compassion,
Concern,
You will make sure someone else is there when you can't be
That insures I am safe.
You are always there for me.
The physical miles between don't indicate that.
The distance your feelings for me are from your heart shows how close you are to me
And from what I can tell
That means I'm pretty much super glued to your heart
Will you be there for me when I need you most?
You already have been.

Suddenly you're leaving
Then you aren't
You keep getting frustrated
What do you want me to do
I want you to be happy
I am flexible for you
I freeze so you don't sweat
I eat wheat because you hate white bread
We make a schedule so you can feel good about the bathroom.
I don't touch your stuff
I'm quiet in the morning
You think something is wrong?
I wasn't even mad at you.
We misunderstand that you wanted to go along
You think we're doing it on purpose
Stop making up excuses to be mad at us
We're sick of it
We wanted you to be happy
You REFUSE to be happy
Leave us alone.
I finally am happy
Happier than you have EVER known me to be
But no
Its still about you because your life isn't perfect
Wake-up thats life
Mine sucks too
Maybe for once be happy that I'm so happy?
You're the only one that can't see how happy I am
You're the only one trying to ruin it
Get over yourself
Stop being self centered
And stop pretending your the victim
We all are in this situation.
You hurt three
we hurt one.
You did more damage than we did combined.
Stop being self centered
Get over yourself

Right now he loves me
I lie to myself and say this time he'll do me different
He moves in for a kiss
I back away
He tries again until he finds the breaking point
He found the breaking point...
I never thought he'd be like that
An upstanding Christian
Enough that he feels justified in judging other by there music
Or about how the handle their love life
Ironic isn't it
That he can't see the plank in his own eye
We are not our music,
Music is a part of us but we should not be judged by it
It is narrow minded to believe we are our music.
Open your eyes.
There is so many other things to define someone by.
And his relationships
You tried to take something of mine without my consent.
How Christian of you
How upstanding
How fake you are.
You are who you have been becoming
You deny what you have been becoming
Say it isn't you
It is you, you just don't like it.
I want to hurl everything painful at you.
All I can muster is,
I hope he is at least man enough to tell her
So many say he won't.
I pray he does.
Show them for once that you are better than they believe
Than I believe.
Show me the scars aren't for nothing
Tell me the blood made you care.
You need to care
Its not about what you can get out of it.
My body isn't something for you to enjoy.
If it were I'd  just be an object...
But that IS what I've become to you
an Object, even though the "attraction isn't physical"
Don't lie through your teeth.
I don't believe that lie.
I just thought you weren't capable.
Don't take whats not yours and then just walk away
Don't hand me an ultimatum about how things will go now
You cornered and shot me
And the only thing you care about is yourself
Its still only about you
When will it be about others?
Life isn't about self preservation
Its about facing reality.
You're head is in the clouds
I don't pretend what I do is right,
I don't pretend I'm not a despicable person.
I'll let my darkness show
I'll let them see my scarlet letter.
And those only ones who won't condemn me for falling
Are those who you say are bad
Your faith is not like your Christ.
Don't judge lest you be judged.
They accept me
The people that are said to be so wrong.
Love me
Hold me
Heal me
Why is it not those like you.
Especially you.
Who are helping me?
What I need the most is to be reached.
But the Doctoring for you is of the healthy.
Christ doctored the Sick.
I am sick
You judged me.
I'm hurt
You condemn me to hell rather than lift me from the pit.
You are not like your Christ.
And you wonder why I don't turn to those who follow Christ like you.
Its because you are the reason I'm hurting
The reason I struggle.
I need a hand up, and you kick me down.